An anonymous blogger and a chance meeting with a man on Twitter. He began reading her blog and fell in love with her sight unseen. After a couple of months of friendship, she turned to him when she was upset and they shared a phone call that would change their lives. They were about to have another call that would change their futures.
I know my voice was gravely, it was obvious that I was cranky and I didn’t care about masking it. It was unbearably hot and I was tired. This wasn’t really the right way to ask such an important question but I was impatient. The heat and fatigue magnified my crankiness.
I wanted to know if there really could be a future for us or if this was some kind of game of footsie. We were talking on the phone on an extremely hot July night. It was late and the air was thick, suffocating almost, like a wet wool blanket.
I’m sure he more than picked up on my bad mood, but he only became more gentle. He started off by saying that he’s been sure of his feelings all along and they’ve only been growing since we’ve been talking.
He went on to say that he knew what he was feeling and he paused as he started to slow down to search for the perfect words. As he was grasping for words, he was obviously uncomfortable with what he was trying to say. I became more aware of my own nerves in reaction to his discomfort. It suddenly became more noticeable to me that I was sweating and I wondered if I was just more aware of it or if it was a reaction to this conversation. I couldn’t be sure.
It was hard to ignore these physical irritations and stay present in this moment an important moment no less. The moment where someone told me they loved me for the first time. A moment that has been a couple of months in the making, culminated into the present. This was such a romantic, pivotal moment; one that made me feel like I wanted to puke. After all the joking around, secrets shared, laughter and tears we've shared - our feelings have changed into love.
It was a sweet moment and we talked about how happy we both were. He said he knew he wanted to be with me and even talked about a forever. We spent a long time on the call basically cooing and repeating our newfound love for each other.
I'm sure you want to puke now, huh? ;)
The Single Mom